sometimes, ya just have to say it like it is

22 06 2011

i miss europe. plain and simple, there is it. i thought me & that other continent would just take a little break from each other last year and that i’d plan a big trip for 2011 that would bring us back together. alas, i feel that it’s not to be this year. i mean, have you seen plane ticket prices to europe lately? what the eff happened, people?! it’s over a thousand to fly anywhere in october (the only time i could go this year) and i just don’t have that kind of money to throw around at the moment. buying a house and all kinda put a damper on that. 😉 perhaps next spring will be better. we shall see…

the past few years have been spent well, travel-wise. i’ve done a lot of trips with friends, trips i didn’t really ever consider to be the type of things i’d take vacation time for. it’s been a tad bit cheaper to stay on this continent, but not completely. i’ve still spent quite a bit. i’ve done NYC countless time (headed back there tomorrow!), seen several awesome music festivals (which has become a priority), tried out colder weather fun (snowboarding was… interesting), been to las vegas more times in one year than i ever thought i’d go total (3…!), and will finally get to see san francisco (and wine country!) in about a month. i suppose i should just start planning way ahead and be able to go back to my beloved paris, et al when i get the chance.

i miss walking the streets and hearing the french language. i miss seeing passing friends kiss on the cheek instead of shake hands. i miss being able to eat dinner at midnight- in a restaurant. i miss the effing euro. i miss fresh french baguettes bought on a whim and eaten while walking down the street. i miss buying a bottle of cheap red wine- that tastes great– at a corner store and then walking across the street to a park and drinking it sitting in the grass. i miss real-deal chocolate eclairs, yo. i miss taking the metro, but i miss walking across paris more. i miss being able to get on a train and be in another country in an hour. i miss the mediterranean way of life. i miss markets, seeing all kinds of animal parts on display, being able to buy the juice of any fruit you can imagine- anyone ever had kiwi juice? it’s awesome. i miss using the parts of my brain that know specks of french, german, spanish. i miss real german pretzels. i miss seeing buildings that are hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of years old. i miss real european romance- not just between people, mind you, but between people and their country. people and their history. i miss the feeling of escape that europe gives… the feeling that you are not a part of your “real” life while you’re there, just a floating piece of humanity with nowhere to be and everything to enjoy. i miss the sense of freedom europe gives me to use my camera, the feeling that every picture i take is a piece of the moment i get to keep forever, even if it’s not very good. 😉 i miss foreign labels on food and drinks in grocery stores, and i miss buying things i’m not familiar with just to try them out. i miss seeing babies in europe and thinking how amazing it is that kids are born in a particular place at a particular time and their brains just adjust to where they sprout. one kid becomes american, one kid german, one french, one spanish. what if i’d been born in france instead of here in georgia? oh, if only! i wonder if i’d be as fascinated with america as i am now with europe. or if i’d have a certain disdain for this place that europeans seem to be born with. 🙂 either way, i do miss that place dearly. i’ve got to go back at some point. it pulls on my heart strings. i’ll be with you again soon, my love.

-j.

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.::vebemos en los barres::.

17 10 2009

friday night:
because it was my “lahhhst” night in sevilla, tessel and i’d planned to go out for a last drink. we just assumed that maurits would follow. at some point, as i told you, it’d become understood between me & tessel that maurits was odd (well, i knew it all along, as would anyone at first glance..! it was more of an acknowledgment that we both recognized the fact). yes, after class every day he came with us wherever we traipsed off to, so of course he came with us tonight. during “internet time,” after i posted last,  they were both still on the computer so i went to that souvenir shop on c/mateos gago to get a few things for others & myself… then i returned for them and we decided to go to the alameda. that’s a place to the northwest of el centro, just a bit past where i lived, that is a big open area with a lot of bars along it. really nice! lots of young people out & about and lots of… TAPAS.

today in culture class we learned all about tapas! the origin of the word is from the verb taper, which means ‘to cover;’ long story short, many ages ago, people would cover their drinks (vino or cerveza, whatever) with a piece of bread or something to keep the flies out. so small pieces of food came to be known as tapas. make sense? saying it back like that makes it seem slightly ridiculous… but i swear that’s what she said!! 🙂 we learned about a few different types of tapas we might find in a typical place, and also she told us a few places that have good tapas here in sevilla on the cheap. hmmmm… woulda been better a few days ago i think! she also told us about typical tapas customs… you go for tapas usually after work or school with a group. however many in a group, that’s how many places you go. Read the rest of this entry »





.::last day in sevilla::.

16 10 2009
haha!! look what *iiiiii* found!!

haha!! look what *iiiiii* found!!

i want to kick wachovia’s ass. i really effing do. who knows how much money i’ve spent calling them *INTERNATIONALLY* trying to access my own damn money in my own damn checking account. i am really effing pissed off right now…. yesterday, i was, once again, unable to get money out of an ATM. i really don’t understand why i should have to call wachovia every other day to confirm that yes, i am jamila meah, YES, i am in spain like i told you a month ago, two weeks ago, four days ago… and to please let me get to my own money. it’s ridiculous. i should send them my phone bill. or something. i had to spend almost and hour talking to people yesterday but finally my money is mine again. this kills me.

on a better note… spain is still beautiful and i can use my debit card to pay for stuff if for any reason i can’t get cash again. it’s just frustrating. yesterday was another lovely day… after i walked to plaza de espana (which was kind of a let-down after going all the way there) and went to the museo de belles artes i went to class. i feel better about learning spanish every day… i feel like i’m learning a lot… but at the same time it’s very frustrating not to have a lot of vocabulary. knowing how to make basic sentences is great but if you don’t know the word you want to use, you’re using a dictionary constantly. *sigh* practice, practice, practice. i’m still by far catching on the quickest which makes it, again, frustrating to have to move so slowly. oh well. i guess i just need to hire someone to speak to me only in español, then maybe i’ll be able to pick it up. Read the rest of this entry »





.::he said it well… i’m having a better time than most can dream::.

15 10 2009

so i’m pretty sure the guy who’s house i’m living in used to be a matador, a) because i’m living in his study and there are certificates about “toros” everywhere, pictures of people (probably him) in a bullfighting ring, all kinds of books and even an encyclopedia set on bulls and bullfighting, and b) because there are all kinds of bull (and other animal heads) on the walls:

hello, friend!!

hello, friend!!

one strange thing i’ve noticed at my school…. and among the people there (students and teachers) in general: there’s a lot of re-wearing of clothes. sure i’ve only been there two days, but i think that makes it more noticeable! i saw one of my teachers with exactly the same top she had on yesterday. i wouldn’t even have noticed, but it was bright yellow. bright yellow. trust me on this one, homegirl… you’re gonna notice a bright yellow top two days in a row. then in my next class? rocio, another teacher, who’s really cool and always says “mmhmm?” as an interjection, when we would normally say “okay?” when talking… she was wearing the very same skirt she had on yesterday. different shirt, same skirt. a very noticeable thing, again, because a) it is a skirt, b) it still had chalk on it from the chalkboard from yesterday, c) it’s an odd type of skirt, black sweatpants material with some sort of strange fold-over tying mechanism that i don’t quite understand. like a yoga skirt. but i like it. so much that i noticed it again today. annnnd to top it off, my favorite little teacher so far, davide, who is also very cool but looks kinda funny, had on the same pants as yesteray. pants are very forgiving; i myself wear the same pants a lot day after day (is that gross?? i don’t think so; as long as they are clean… ish…) i guess i just noticed them because they had some really recognizable pockets and i was noticing everyone else wear the same clothes today. perhaps tomorrow i should wear the same sundress i wore today and see if anyone notices. hehehe. Read the rest of this entry »





.::ich liebe españa!::.

14 10 2009

learning español seems easy but i am gonna be sad i only did one week of classes… it’s so easy that i could pick it up really fast if i were here longer… *SIGH* i don’t even know how much i’ll get to use it next week in my travels to madrid & barcelona. i really hope i’m motivated enough to put effort into learning at home… i need to find classes i can take there that i can do after work, or something, so i can keep up practice. or find people to talk with. i feel like this is a language i can stick with, and that i’ll probably use forever. one of the teachers today asked me if español was an official language in the US (or, the EEUU as they call it…?) yet. i laughed, but it was kind of sad too… that’s probably where we’re headed, eh? in that case, glad i’m learning it finally. now it’s off for more wine & tapas… i could certainly get used to this..! hopefully tomorrow i’ll wake up with the sun and do some exploring of sevilla & actually take pictures before class. stay tuned, darlings…

¡hasta luego!
james